'I'm proud of my scars' - teenage cancer survivor

Gaby is looking happy and smiling while out at a restaurant. She has long blonde hair that has been curled and is wearing earrings and a necklace. Image source, Supplied
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"I wouldn't do anything to change [my scars] and I probably won't change my mind about that. I'm happy with how I am," said Gaby

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"When I heard the words 'you have cancer', one of the first things that popped into my head was, 'am I going to lose my hair?'"

Gaby Maurice was 13 years old when a tumour grew in her jaw muscle and spread to her mouth.

The teenager, from Cambridgeshire, was diagnosed with rhabdomyosarcoma, external - an aggressive type of cancer that primarily affects children. But after nine chemotherapy cycles and various surgeries, she has been in remission for two years and no longer needs medication.

The now 17-year-old wants to raise awareness around how treatment can affect young people's self-esteem, after changes in her appearance made her feel "awful", on top of the strains of dealing with the disease.

Gaby is on a hospital ward in bed. She has no hair and the tumour in her jaw muscle is visible. There is a tube running up her neck and into her nose which has been taped to her face. She is not smiling as she takes the photo of herself.  Image source, Supplied
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Gaby said her diagnosis was "hard", but "when you actually look and feel like you have cancer it can be even worse"

"I used to have long blonde hair and it was my comfort blanket. I was a real 'girly girl', so losing it was a big deal. It made me feel insecure," said Gaby, who was in secondary school when she was diagnosed.

"I also have an indent in my face from where they removed my tumour. The scar was bigger than I expected it to be. The thought of everyone being able to see it, because it was on my face and not being able to hide it, was scary and a shock."

She said that at an age when appearance began to matter more, it caused her "a lot of anxiety".

The Teenage Cancer Trust said the psychological distress from changes to appearance caused by cancer and treatment were often overlooked. 

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Gaby is smiling while holding a certificate and standing next to a silver bell, which is rung when a patient is given the all-clear. It reads 'Ring this bell, three times well, its toll to clearly say, my treatment's done, this course is run, and I am on my way'. Gaby has long light brown hair and is wearing a white jumper and black trousers.Image source, Supplied
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Gaby said it was hard dealing with changes to her appearance, but her scars showed she "battled cancer and made it out the other side"

Gaby said her scars were bigger than she expected, with one on her leg from a skin graft and an indent on her face from the tumour, but she found them "quite cool now".

She had been self-conscious, but as she began to meet more young people going through similar situations, she regained her confidence.

"I am still me," she told BBC Radio Cambridgeshire.

"I'm the same person I was before my diagnosis and it has not changed who I am.

"At times I thought I would never be able to say that but I have really grown in confidence. I've learnt to love my scars, love my indent and love sharing my story, because it is such an eye-opener for people going through the same thing.

"Hopefully they think, 'she got through it so I can'."

Gaby is sitting on a stone ledge as a young girl. She has long blonde hair and is smiling while wearing jeans and a stripy top.Image source, Supplied
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Gaby, pictured before her diagnosis, has been backing a charity campaign to get people to understand the toll cancer and its treatment can have on young people

Dr Louise Soanes, a chief nurse at Teenage Cancer Trust, said more should be done to provide psychological support for young people with cancer.

"The nurses and youth support teams we fund work tirelessly to support young people with cancer, emotionally," she said.

"However, for those who need it, access to specialist psychological treatment from trained mental health professionals is a postcode lottery, with many who need help going unsupported."

Earlier this year the government relaunched the Children and Young People Cancer Taskforce, external, alongside the national cancer plan, external, to identify ways to improve outcomes and patient experience.

The government said it would ensure the unique needs of children, their families and carers would be carefully considered.

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